To My Baby Girl

My Dearest  Bella,

I know that life has been pretty hard on you lately, especially now that Dad and Mom are no longer together.  It is sad but you haven't lost any of us.  Your mom is still here, and although, we don't live with her and Inigo anymore, I'm quite sure that she loves you very, very much.  Igor, has been born, and even though at times I know you get annoyed and angry with him,  but you know what else?  I can see how much you love him as well.  The patience you display and the warmth I see and feel when you are together, cannot be denied.  In my mind's eye, I know that you will do absolutely anything to protect him and it comforts me to see so much love from you.
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Gratitude for the Year that’s passed.

Ah yes, the end of a year is approaching.  The time when people look back at the past year and ask themselves what they have accomplished.  The time, when we sit down and reflect on what was lost and what was gained.  Sifting through what has happened might very well be a sad endeavor, but it should not be so.  I am a big fan of positivism.  Afterall, you attract what is always on your mind.  To be morbid about it, the fact that you are able to reflect about the past  already says a lot about how you handled the stresses and challenges of the last year.  Simply put, you survived and sheeeeit that should be something to be proud of now, isn't it?
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must-have list for 2008

Thanks Carey for the tag.  Am not particularly in a creative mood right now (in other words, beer has not kicked in) hehehe.  So many times, when we think of must haves, we normally think in material or financial terms.  But for me it has always been and always will be a long term outlook.  

Anyway, here is my list list of must have's for 2008
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They Never Learn….

Sigh…..

As much as I like going to relatives during the holidays, there is still that dread that overstaying in their company brings.  Such meddling in my personal affairs is bothersome and really annoys the hell outta me. 
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Oh Joy!

Must be sung to the tune of Joy to the World.
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Myriad of Thoughts Volume 1, Series 6

One particularly hard day…….
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Men Beware

Tsk, tsk, tsk.  Men you all better watch out!  A friend emailed me this and I just don't want you guys getting into the same trouble.
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Leaving it all behind

Starting this week, I open a new chapter in my life.  

Though, I trudge under the shadows once again, I will make a  conscious effort  to let go of the past, forgive those who have offended me, ask forgiveness from those I've hurt,  continue with my journey of life and force the sun to rise once again on me.

Never really was a fan of rollercoaster rides.  Been riding one for almost three years and I've no  wish to make it a major part of my life,  hence, am getting down at the next stop as this has gone on for a long time with no clear motive nor rationale. Neither an effort to explain nor closure seems to be in the horizon, and I guess, my hand is being forced in a direction that I do not wish to take but is insisted upon. So, with that said, so be it. I cannot insist. 

So many things to ponder, so many things to consider.  I know I will find my way sooner or later, for now, I will enjoy the company of darkness. 

Exasperation

Sometimes, conversations between me and Bella go from the inane to logical to the serious.  Anyway, just last week she felt the need to be very serious about asking me something and since, I had nothing better to do, I just went along with the conversation.
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My Pride

So the kids and I went to the beach last weekend. It was fun basically because the kids were with  me.  Anyway, Igor has grown so much that he has reached my favorite stage, which is the terrible twos.  Now most parents abhor this stage.  Why? Well, they are not called "terrible" for nothing.

I enjoy this stage mainly because, I get glimpses of a child's temperament. It is here where their personality can be gleaned.  Bella at this stage, was the sweet, mischievous, experimenter.  Meaning she would stretch your patience to the limit but once she sees you mean business, then the puppy dog eyes are launched leaving me in a helpless heap.  

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The Bottomline

We've fallen.

Everyone does so once in a while. It is a sad but eventual fact of life. 
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