It’s just one of those days……

Was a volcano ready to explode yesterday.  Work has been particularly pretty hard the past days and there is pressure for me to go home early as it is my daughter's quarterlies this week.  It was most significant to get home earlier yesterday because her exams for today are for Sibika and Math, subjects that she is quite weak in.  You see right from the very beginning, I have spoken to my daughter in English.  Because whether we admit it or not, there is a slight preference for people who are fluent in the language when they apply for work.   I think I did a great job training her in that.  However, she now has trouble speaking in the vernacular.   Sibika is taught in the vernacular.

So there I was rushing to get home and traffic was pretty bad and it was slightly drizzling.  In effect, was already in a foul mood when I got home.  Lo and behold when I got there, I see her watching a DVD.   Talk about the straw that broke the camel's back.  So after a few choice words, I decided to have dinner and left her in the room with her books and near tears.  One thing about parenting is that even though sometimes, we get so angry with our kids, there is always that guilty feeling when we reprimand them and they look at you with those teary, puppy dog eyes.  So, I decided to stay away for a while to cool off.   

When I got back, she was still studying.  So I took her and seated her on my lap and asked her why she thought I got angry.  She answered in a repentant tone:  "Cause, I didn't study."  I said "Good" and explained to her that what made it more unfortunate, was because she was getting low grades in Sibika which should be a reason for her to strive more.  At the same time, I mentioned that I already have a hard time paying for her tuition (she studies in St. Paul-Pasig) and  to see her not taking her studies seriously is a big let down for me.  In effect, I gave her a rundown on the principles of cause and effect and that her choices/decisions in life will determine the cause and which in turn will of course, be followed by the effect.  Then she goes, "I'm so sorry Dad." and I gave her a hug. 

After that, she goes to her bag and hands me a paper and asks me to read it.  It was a story! One she made up and written with her drawing.  

EGAD! It just made me so proud to see it cause in effect, she inherited my love for writing.  Never mind the grammatical errors and wrong spelling! All anger at that point vanished and I gave her a hug and kiss again.  After studying we had a nice chat about writing.  I'm just so proud right now. 

Side note: Seeing how my daughter is right now and her attitude towards studying, I am reminded of my childhood. I never really was interested in school.  The only reason I went so far as a master's degree was to get ahead in life.  I just hope that she got the good traits and not the bad in me.  Otherwise, KARMA is in the offing and I'm sure to pay for my past sins now! Hehehehe!