Uncomfortable
July 20, 2007Ex has been a little chummier than usual for the last two weeks. Texting, calling, emailing. I can perfectly understand last week as Igor was with me the whole week. But for it to continue…….I do hope she knows that it is over and that we can only remain as friends.
I am uncomfortable when we talk. She acts like she's done nothing wrong and that bugs me. Though I have made it a policy to never open up to her and that all conversations will be about the kids, I seem to be getting a feeling that this is being used to get what she wants. Whatever that is I don't know. As weird as the situation already is, I can't seem to be blunt with her. Like tell her off hand, not to ask me to edit her business letters. Mind you, I'd do this for any of my friends, but with our history towering between the two of us, it becomes hard to think in black and white terms.
Oh shit, I can't be bugged by this. I have a life to tend to!
ONWARD! (to makati ave! hihihihi!)
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Thanks Alvs. Yes, growth should always be a priority. It’s sad really, cause, each time I remember those days that started two years ago, it just strengthens my resolve NOT to go back to that kind of life. At anyrate, I think I have grown by leaps and bounds. Hehehehe
Posted by ramblingvirus at July 20, 2007, 10:40 amaroo! papakipot ka lang eh! or maybe finding an excuse to get yourself under the comfort of makati ave! hehe! kidding! i really don’t know what happened with you guys but i’m having an idea about it … shit happens and i’m glad that you’re not letting yourself fall down that shit-hole she dug… geez..i’m talking like i know her … hmmm… maybe i do …hmmm … :p
Posted by CCC at July 20, 2007, 11:24 amCCC, hehehe, wish I was really playing hard to get. Those were days that I really don’t want to experience anymore. Nope, this time, my mind is going to make all decisions.
Well, I can safely say that I know what is on your mind and yun na yun! Hehehehe. Point is, respect for the self is paramount. I won’t allow anyone to trample me. Even if she were my significant other. 
THIS SONG IS DEDICATED TO THE EX OF MR. VIRUS … ahem!
Now I don’t want to see you any more
Don’t want to be the one to play your game
Not even if you smile your sweetest smile
Not even if you beg me “Darling please”
-FraLippoLippi
come on araneta!!! sing with me!!!
yebah! mapapakanta na yan!
Posted by CCC at July 20, 2007, 2:42 pm“Ayoko ng tinatapakan, ayoko ng masikip, ayoko ng mabaho, ayoko ng walang tubig, ayoko ng walang pagkain, ayoko ng putik””
Maricel Soriano, Kaya Kong Abutin ang Langit (1984)
Posted by paolomendoza at July 20, 2007, 4:56 pmCCC, Hahahaha!! However, that song bespeaks of a lot of anger and resentment still. I don’t have any of those for her now. Just pity and most of the time indifference. I guess, I am just taking these lessons to heart. I just don’t want her expecting anything from me as I really have nothing to offer her anymore.
Paolo, isa kang sira ulo! Hehehehe
Posted by ramblingvirus at July 20, 2007, 5:50 pmHope your kids understand the situation…
Posted by cris at July 21, 2007, 12:09 amsometimes it’s better to tell people straight off the bat that they’re bugging you. because sometimes they never get a clue.
Posted by liz at July 21, 2007, 9:54 amhmmmm..
Posted by sweetperceptions at July 21, 2007, 10:48 amWhat you did was right. Going to Makati Ave and ogle at the leydees really gets one’s feelings lighter. I also heard going to Quezon Ave makes one feel satisfied and rejuvenated.
Posted by steel at July 21, 2007, 5:59 pmIf you can’t get rid of the uncomfortable feeling, I think it’s better to try to be honest to her about what you feel.
Off topic: Aha Is this the same reason why in blazes my friends disappear almost every week and they say they were hanging out in Makati ave? LOL
Posted by joiz at July 22, 2007, 9:54 amCris, I think they both have adjusted well to the situation. Afterall, it is much better for them to see us like this than seeing us fighting. My kids are real troopers and I’m so proud of them.
Funny thing about this Liz, is that I have told her before that I do not appreciate it and yet, she will just let some time pass and then she starts again.
SP, what is on your mind?
Steel, who said anything about just “ogling” ladies? Hahahahaha! Just kidding.
Joiz, I just don’t like telling her how I feel and think I guess. She’s not entitled to that anymore. Yes, most probably the same reason that you’re friends have in going there. hehehehe.
Thanks everyone.
Posted by ramblingvirus at July 22, 2007, 11:45 amhang on Col. !!! in time this will pass. cheers!
Thanks Carey!
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Good for you virus! She had her chance and blew it… twice!!!
Posted by alvin at July 20, 2007, 10:20 amremember the golden rule, “surround yourself with people who will help you grow and inspire you to become a better person” so i guess TUDULUS! hehehe