let me share with you one of my journal entry “in the past..i’ve always been hasty, yet cautious.. i am the type who reserves her sentiment for someone worthy of affection and time…but..i wonder how i always end up with people who either mock me or take advantage of the fact that i am unprejudiced..well..this time i couldn’t care less…relationships are made and broken everyday..those who lose it are always faced with the difficult task of moving on alone..what most of us refuse to understand is that we cannot move on without acceptance in our hearts…i have learned to forgive.. however i cannot bring myself to forget the past…”

Ah touche Ma’m, hehehe! Take note, ma’m na lang sya.

But seriously, I just find it disturbing that these guys bark up my tree and continue to tell me that I am being too judgmental. Sigh, it’s so easy for them to say cause they never were at the receiving end.

Yes, I have noticed that too, that once I began accepting the fact that she will never change, it made it a lot easier for me to let go and forgive. BUT!! (and that’s a BIG BUT), I will never, ever, no matter how hard I try, be able to forget. Afterall, we read history to learn from it so that we DON’T commit the same mistakes again.

Thank you very much for the support Trish. You do not know how much that means to me. You are an angel in disguise, I presume.

Oh well, life goes on. Just wanted to get that off my chest.

you’re most welcome, SIR hehehe. .nway, i’m not sure about the angel thingie. .i’ve always considered myself as one of the maldita ones! hahahaha have a sunshiney day! *hugs*

I agree with you and Trish! I hate it when people tell me to take her back because she has suffered enough. I tell them one thing, “are you kidding me? I almost proposed to that two-timing demented loony ex of mine. She had her chance and blew it. ” Oh no, I promise her the last time we spoke that I will stop calling her my two-timing demented loony ex… Darn, whats wrong with me?

You’re doing the right thing. I would have told the priest off. hehehe Anyhow, the biggest revenge is for her to see you happily married(?) or living with someone sexier and prettier the soonest… I know someone for you! hahaha

Lagot ka Alvin! Sinabi mo nanaman yung TT word! Hehe! Habulin ka nun mamya.

Nah, to say something to the priest would only give him space in an already overcrowded brain. Save the brainspace for more meaningful pursuits.

Sige, Tita Trish, ayos lang tawagin mo akong sir.

Tell you this though, your perception of yourself might be entirely different from how the world perceives you.

i envy you for being able to forgive … i’ve always had an issue with forgiving people

Chillicheesecai,

Always remember that Forgiveness is more for you than for anyone else. To not be able to forgive and let go means that you will be bringing that heavy load of baggage with you where ever you go. It will weigh you down and towards the end, the bitterness, anger and hurt escape subconsciously and people you deal with might get a glimpse of it. Why not travel light?

I totally understand the feeling of forgiving, yet you still get hit with stones.

I guess that’s how man reacts with life. Save your own ass.. after all, who knows exactly how you’ve lived your life is nowhere here on earth diba??

Great to know you’ve forgiven her. I think that is what’s most important naman.

SP,

It could be stones or barking dogs. Point is the will to move forward. At anyrate, moving forward is as exciting as a new date. Well, from a guy’s point of view really.

and….

I am not saving my own ass! Just covering it a little, it gets kinda cold in the evenings ya know! Hehehe.

But seriously, what you wrote is very true. Only one being knows who we really are and how we live our life. That is why we should make every second count while we’re here, cause it’s a short life (well especially for me as I’m a smoker). So it’s not the length of your life but the quality of it that matters. Hmmm, my reply is getting pretty long. Maybe I will write more about forgiveness. Let us wait for lunch time and see if the creative juices will cooperate.

yeah.. moving on. it takes a lot of nerve to bravely do so.

PS: i was once a smoker too..

SP,

“once” a smoker? You don’t really believe that you have successfully kicked the habit do you? Hehehe.

Just kidding. I know I will quit someday…….most probably when I am six feet under the ground. Hehe.

Yep, the most important thing is to move on. Slowly at first, but once you get your groove, it becomes relatively easy.

Thanks very much for the kind words.

OI ALVIN!! kelangan magbenta ng katawan?? hahahahhaa!!! kayo talaga!

thank you guys..a lot of people are telling me that i am seein myself in a whole new different point..e ano ba talaga kasi?! i dont feel so good about myself, but i am so freakin good at making other ppl feel good about themselves..huhuhu..freak ba ko?!

A freak you are not Ma’m Twish!

Maybe a little looney but that’s just about all the flaws I can see. Hihihi.

Just kidding ma’m. Maybe it would be best to take one’s advice. A lot of people seem to find wisdom in your words, and I tend to agree with them. Now before you sleep, when you are lying down, you reflect, and think what is so loveable about you. All you need to do is think of all our collective words and voila! You have your answers.

..which is none..

HAHAHHAHAA!! sorry, i haven’t slumbered yet!

None? I could pour out some really good words here to describe my first impression of you, pero hiya ako eh. (blush daw o!) Hahahaha.

But seriously, trust me………they’re all good.

nyaaaa! para bang makahiya na nadaanan ng tsinelas??

thanks tsong! self-esteem up one notch! woohoo! hehehe..

Cool! Mission Accomplished!